Letter Dated Thursday, December 11th

Dear Fearless Leader,

As I laid awake last night, I tried to imagine dying. It's something I do a lot. Not so much dying, as being in your presence. Then I try to imagine nothingness. I can't really imagine either. I tried not to feel fear. I tried not to imagine something safe. I tried to just feel it, as real as it is inside of me. I let some spirit take me to another place in my mind. I just tried to feel, to let myself be overwhelmed. It's like the wind rushing past my face so fast that I struggle to get a breath in. I try not to let myself react emotionally, just let it be.

Your Servant,
BJ